So, where to begin.... Well, we added baby number 5 into the mix in late July! He came 5 weeks and 1 day early and we spent 11 terrifying days in the special care nursery, During delivery, I had a partial uterine rupture and it was touch and go with me and baby Pher. Baby Pher had respiratory distress issues and was rushed off and it took a good long while to close me up. I finally got to meet my precious little guy after my spinal wore off.
Baby Pher ended up needing to be intubated and given surfactant and then weaned to a cpap, then oxygen before completely being able to breathe on his own.
The time spent at the hospital was so incredibly hard, but he had amazing nurses that loved him and cared for him! I am happy to say that he is now going on 5 months old and completely healthy and happy! I am so thankful for the blessing that he is and he completes our family perfectly! God has blessed us immensely!
Since my uterus partially ruptured and the thickness of my uterus was at less than 1mm, my doctor said it was incredibly lucky that we both survived and I CANNOT have anymore children. I am still slowly recovering and will be hopefully working on my fitness after the new year! I do have to say that I think that 4 boys and 1 girl right in the middle is as perfect as it could be for us!
So after coming home from the hospital and getting settled in, Bear had to have a minor procedure done that had him laid up for a little while and then the storm hit. We found out that due to Bear's horrific/toxic COC, he was not selected for promotion. He has been in the job of the grade he was trying to promote to (which is above his current grade, obviously) for over 3 years (obviously he can do the job). It's infuriating to know that 1 person can change the course of your entire 13 year career without any justification or any reasoning behind it. There's nothing you can do if someone above you decides they just want to screw you over for the hell of it. It's really sad that we have given everything and we just got stabbed in the back in the end.
We have been really fortunate to have quite a few people step up and try to do something on his behalf. We have also had our fair share of individuals that walked out when times got tough and also some that said they were going to help and just quietly walked away instead. It is impossible not to harbor a great deal of resentment when you work all of your life with a spotless record and go above and beyond just to get screwed... where is the justice in that? There isn't any to be honest. His mentor said that there is a silent cleansing going on with those just under the early retirement eligibility and we are one of those people, unfortunately.
So, here we sit... a week and a half until Christmas.. just over 2 months since the storm hit and our life is in shambles. We don't know where we will be a year from now or if we will be homeless and jobless. It's unnerving to be honest.
We were actually in the middle of preparing for a move when all of this occurred but our move was canceled once all of this happened and he switched to a position that is well above his grade and will be doing twice as much work. I question daily why we are even trying anymore and what it's all for? I am weak and weary and am at the threshold of throwing in the towel. Hopefully we get a Christmas miracle and some of this fighting pays off. We will see I guess. Until then it's worry, wait, and pray.... If you are the praying type, please pray that our efforts to rectify this situation pay off very soon.
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